Long time but not forgotten

I have not failed at blogging again i just have had empty or just reoccurring thoughts.. I cannot even remember what my last post was about. hold on a sec... ok i went to check to see what it was about.. it was about football and God. Those thoughts still trouble me. I have a confession to make. I am super down when it comes to the Church (as in the building or the people in charge of the building). It seems as though every where i turn there is a man imposing his will on a group of people. Then again if i look at myself i am no better really. I claim to be a disciple of Christ yet i am swayed by things that do not even have the ability to love me at all, much less love me as Christ loves me. God thank you for loving a harlot for you know i have cheated on you many times yet you take me back...

hmm..

i have not strayed from blogging.. just do not have a lot of organized thoughts right now.. i do have this one.. Last saturday around 170,000 paid money to go see Auburn play LSU and Alabama play Tn.. Why is it that we can unite over a football team but not our God?

Thought

“Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring.” Oscar Wilde

Just a thought..

"Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person." Mother Teresa

Opposite

Love for Enemies Matthew 5:43-48
43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor[h] and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies[i] and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

Humbly i am learning. This is a tough one for me. prayers are appreciated.

Mattew 1-5

Tonight after i got home from work i was negative in my spirit. sometimes i fail miserably at being a light at work. I pray about it and hit the door and something happens to set the chaos in motion and i continually get swept away. So i got on the bike tonight about 1 am and read Matthew Chapters 1-5.. not the first time i have read these but every time they humble me and give me some direction on how to conduct myself and what to pray that i become. If you don't feel like reading the genealogy and what not, just read chapter 5 and let Jesus himself level the playing field.. It humbles and redirects me every time... Grace and Peace.

just a thought

Surely you remember, brothers, our toil and hardship; we worked night and day in order not to be a burden to anyone while we preached the gospel of God to you. 1 Thessalonians 2:9

Just wondering how this lines up with pastors and missionaries who are making 6 figures a year while the Church cuts its mission budget. Then when a member of the body needs help the Church has no money or resources to help them. Any thoughts?